YOU HAVE NO IDEA.
Donate Blood, Save Lives
I remained underweight until July 2013, after my metatarsal surgery. It was extremely distressing to see the number of the scales creep up over the last few years. There were many times when I got so stressed up over it that I just hid in my room and cried. There were also countless number of times that I rejected gathering invitations because I didn't know what's on the menu, what the chefs sneakily put onto my plate. Plus, I didn't feel comfortable eating outside my comfort areas and around people.
Ask me out, suggest any restaurant - let's feast together and have a great time! :P
I guess it'll be rather difficult to find another person who has such a deep desire to give blood. It's so meaningful to me because I've been through painful surgeries and being able to pass the weight criteria is a significant milestone for me.
My weight is just a number. It doesn't define me in any way.
A smaller number on the scales or around my waist doesn't result in a happier and more satisfied me.
I'll still be me - facing the same insecurities, same problems, same life.
My body is never the real problem.
This probably sounds stupid but I was quite scared while waiting to donate. But not as scared as I was when I was 16. I was so scared of pain and fainting, I kept reminding my friend that he has to carry me home if I were to faint. He offered to carry my bags home instead... Zzz...
If you've never donated blood because you're scared, TRUST ME - there's absolutely nothing to be afraid of.
I reminded myself of the scoliosis and metatarsal surgeries that I've been through over the last few years. My immediate reaction was,
"What the hell are you scared of?!
If you can survive being physically
cut up and screwed in,
you can survive this."
The nurse gave me some advice, which ignited legitimate worrying:
Avoid lifting heavy weights"
Avoid lifting heavy weights?!
& hey, my last lift of 2013...
Metabolic Training Circuit:
Lifted the Heaviest Ever
Metabolic training is what my workout designs are based upon. I literally saw my body composition change as I incorporated it into my weekly routine. If you want Absolutely Awesome Abs or just want to increase your metabolism so that you can eat more without putting on excess fats, try it!
Even my (mental) endurance improved. I mentioned in Finding the Motivation to Live Healthy that I hate traditional cardio because it bores me to death. I don't usually last more than 10 to 20 minutes. Yesterday, I ran 5km in slightly less than 30 minutes with 10 minutes of High Intensity Interval Training (HIIT) in the middle. Pretty happy about it.
I spent my about 30 minutes on the treadmill, around 1 hour for 2 circuits and another hour of my own yoga practice and foam rolling. Haven't spent so much time in the gym for WAYYYYY TOO LONG. I loved it!!!
Need to celebrate this amazing year.
GUESS HOW MUCH THIS BABY COST ME?!
It's not even expiring soon (with my standards haha).
So many precious lives crossed my path; I hope I did manage to leave some positive energy lingering in each of them. For me, 2013 was a year of growth in terms of my professional skills, physical capacity, mental strength and emotion & thought management.
It is so important to remember how I got here. There were tons of struggle, failures, whining, crying, bleeding, cursing and ultimately, many episodes of shutting out negativity, clenching of my teeth and fists and bulldozing my way through all the shit.